Romance
A word that bring happiness.

What is romantic?
How can couples still be romantic after they know
every single thing about each other.

Am I in rebellious mode?

Do you think, "Romance" is ever gonna happen on me?

I wanna be myself.
I mean like how i use to be.
I wanna chiong Badminton after tennis to realize how different and fun
game can be holding different racket and using different ways to play.
And then soak myself in the cold swimming pool in late night.

Is it because swimming pool is so far now so I have to quit being myself?
Is it because there is no tennis court and badminton court anywhere
so I have to quit them?

I wanna slim down. I don't feel happy looking in the mirror and kinda think
that I grew fatter.
Its not about having super good figure or whatever cause I'll never have a good figure
with those muscular arms.
Its just about being myself.

My dearest grandmother.
I hope you rest in peace.
I'll never forget you.
You are my hero, save me from my mummy cane,
belt,cloth hanger,newspaper, kneel or durians shell.
You even call the police when she go over the line.
I really don't mind dying right now just to be with you.
I love you PoPo. I love you.

Beanie is on my mind right now.
Its like, hey Beanie how's your life.
I hope he understand girls more, I mean now and erm not like last time.
Be more patience with girls, cause we are born complicated.
Why is everyone around me getting older and older.
And of course me too. T_T

I miss my ship crew.
Why do they have to you know, seperate. Some ORD, some posted out
some went here and there.
We used to be so bonded, So bonded I think we are glued together.
Maybe that's just what I think. I really never know how the other thinks.
Maybe they just think its a good thing I was gone.
And now there's a new female onboard. Maybe she wont talk as much as I do.
And won't disturb people as much as I do.
Wont kaobei as much as I do. =\
This is call self-hurting. FULLSTOP.