PancakegaL

2011-11-26T03:34:00.003+08:00

Romance
A word that bring happiness.

What is romantic?
How can couples still be romantic after they know
every single thing about each other.

Am I in rebellious mode?

Do you think, "Romance" is ever gonna happen on me?

I wanna be myself.
I mean like how i use to be.
I wanna chiong Badminton after tennis to realize how different and fun
game can be holding different racket and using different ways to play.
And then soak myself in the cold swimming pool in late night.

Is it because swimming pool is so far now so I have to quit being myself?
Is it because there is no tennis court and badminton court anywhere
so I have to quit them?

I wanna slim down. I don't feel happy looking in the mirror and kinda think
that I grew fatter.
Its not about having super good figure or whatever cause I'll never have a good figure
with those muscular arms.
Its just about being myself.

My dearest grandmother.
I hope you rest in peace.
I'll never forget you.
You are my hero, save me from my mummy cane,
belt,cloth hanger,newspaper, kneel or durians shell.
You even call the police when she go over the line.
I really don't mind dying right now just to be with you.
I love you PoPo. I love you.

Beanie is on my mind right now.
Its like, hey Beanie how's your life.
I hope he understand girls more, I mean now and erm not like last time.
Be more patience with girls, cause we are born complicated.
Why is everyone around me getting older and older.
And of course me too. T_T

I miss my ship crew.
Why do they have to you know, seperate. Some ORD, some posted out
some went here and there.
We used to be so bonded, So bonded I think we are glued together.
Maybe that's just what I think. I really never know how the other thinks.
Maybe they just think its a good thing I was gone.
And now there's a new female onboard. Maybe she wont talk as much as I do.
And won't disturb people as much as I do.
Wont kaobei as much as I do. =\
This is call self-hurting. FULLSTOP.

2011-11-04T22:27:00.000+08:00

i WANNA be alone.
FUCKING LEAVE ME ALONE

2011-10-29T14:37:00.002+08:00

At this very moment.
I have no feelings.
No feeling of angry, sad or happy. No feeling at all.
I wanna be alone forever.
I dun need anyone.
What I need is to be alone with myself.

2011-10-09T06:52:00.002+08:00

Exactly one year ago, i stop blogging.
I don't know why and i don't want to know.
Blogging is like, talking to myself..
Or.. showing people how I feel. And den... for wat?

Maybe its just a better way to talk to yourself when u blog.
instead of physically talking to yourself.
You talk to urself mentally. =\ ?_?

Does couples become strangers after a year being together?
You think the opposite of you complete you.
Maybe i am wrong.

2010-10-07T12:13:00.001+08:00

It's very difficult to live on.

With different feelings everyday.

Let there please just me alone.

2010-09-12T03:02:00.001+08:00

I wanna be free.

2010-06-30T21:41:00.000+08:00

When I thought I was totally broke.

And...Hahahaha I found out I can withdraw my money from savings

through atm machine. Although is not a very good thing. You know.

I gonna put all my bonus in next month.

I promise promise!

Always keep withdrawing. =\

So sad. My saving account is always empty.

Have fun with the NE tour today~~

Will post lots of photo later~

2010-06-27T18:02:00.000+08:00

I am so getting boring.

=\ Feel kinda weird.

2010-06-27T05:33:00.000+08:00

I seriously dont like ppl spoiling my cooking.

and i dont like people who eat disgusting food.

You know add abit of chilli, ma you and then the noodle become lap sap.

it like EEEEE

2010-06-20T04:55:00.001+08:00

I get to cry very soon~! =D

2010-06-17T15:00:00.001+08:00

I tried to deliver.

What u expect from me.

I am in pain.

I don't wanna be Miss Rambo-ness anymore.

I wanna cry.

Please at least, take a look at me.

2010-06-15T21:08:00.002+08:00

Went for massage and rebond.

I look like a total mushroom now.

Should have thought of it.

As in, everyone says i am a mushroom when i cut my hair.

And now i go and rebond it!

It's SO mushroom!!

Today DC was shag.

But we manage to up lvl.

I can see everyone hardwork and happiness after that.

=D SO HAPPY.

I am just glad I didnt do anything wrong.

HAHAHA!

Need to start on my maths soon!

2010-06-13T00:16:00.001+08:00

My prawn mee is nice!!!

Muahahahahaas!!

2010-06-11T22:19:00.000+08:00

What was I doing?

I am confused.

2010-05-19T06:25:00.000+08:00

I love u so so much. Just need to be more imaginative.

2010-05-09T19:06:00.002+08:00

My whole family went MIA.

Since yesterday.

I think they are in Casino. Again.

Bored.

I am going down with cheok to eat my dinner.

Always bring him need to order pork. =.=

I DUN LIKE EAT PORK!

expensive dog.

Went out with Jerry last night.

HAHAHAHAHA.

IT's happen to go out late midnight.

Somehow the air become better.

The scenary are also nicer.

HAHAHA

2010-05-04T23:51:00.002+08:00

It's my maximun.

When I was 14 - Simon Neo, A piece of shit.

5 years of relationship.

All I get is shit. Jail, Fight, Drugs, Theft, Gangster. I grew up.

But not you.

When I was 19 - Benjamin Sit, Lies.

How long did we last? I forgot.

Because it's all lies.

Who would want to remember lies.

When I was 20 - John, Everything is mystery.

Where did you go??? Where are you now???

???????

Now I am 21 - Porkman.

Painful.

I cant even type out your name.

It's like a star that I can never reach.

Never never never.

And who's next?

2010-04-29T23:15:00.002+08:00

U wont treat me good anymore?

Wont love me anymore?

No more morning and goodnight kiss.

Because I wont be able to see you sleep through the night til morning.

I am pathetic.

One after another.

And it's always me.

2010-04-29T22:18:00.003+08:00

What the hell happen to me?

I failed my IPPT.

Which is not possible!!

Give me a reason why.

Okay, maybe because I am having cough.

I had difficulties breathing just now.

And I feel faint. So I started walking.

What happen!!? I was never this weak!

I dun faint! Why am I feeling faint?

Am I dying? Omg. I think I got some terminal illness.

It's time to do a full body check up.

Maybe, I didnt drink enough milk.

Milk is my source of energy!

Hais.

All of the above is craps.

This is not what I wanna talk about.

Is just a mother fucking IPPT.

U siam me.

That's all I know.

Is my own fault anyway.

2010-04-27T01:14:00.001+08:00

Omg is fun playing dota!!

Jerry again. He been planting lots of bulbs in my life.

Just these 2 days.

2010-04-26T18:32:00.002+08:00

It's normal to feel sad.

So i take it as it's normal.

Hahaha.

I read all my previous blog.

It seems like, I change alot.

From the day beanie left.

Then about John. Then you.

Well, always end with me getting sad only.

I have a bad dream.

I couldn't sleep.

Thanks to Jerry that company me til morning.

He bought me to out.

Thanks alot.

2010-04-18T17:26:00.002+08:00

Well Well. It's like a cursed.

From long long time ago.

I have differentiate the different kind of pain.

And I realize, it's only a matter of time to numb.

I am now. Numb.

Thanks to me, and you.

2010-04-18T17:22:00.002+08:00

你知道为什么人会想要死吗?

我想逃避。

我一直都在逃避。

可是现在，我已经没有力气在逃。

也没有勇气面对。

2010-04-18T17:18:00.001+08:00

为什么我没有。

为什么不敢在快一点。

为什么不敢在大力一点。

为什么要救我。

2010-04-16T22:59:00.002+08:00

Area cleaning 1.

It's time i fixed things back to how it used to be.

Why am I so different now.

Remember people used to use force on me so I talk.

But now I talk non-stop.

No one will ever believe I only starts talking at the age of 2.

Area cleaning 2.

I need to clean my brain.

Wash away all the bad bad memories.

What bad memories...

Memories like...you.

Area cleaning 3.

I am starting to train myself.

To live a life, without you.

From no onwards.

I don't expect anything from you anymore.

Is just a matter of time to goodbye.

Peace, til I have the courage.

Area cleaning 4.

I shouldn't enjoy life so much.

I feel like I am throwing money away.

Area cleaning 5.

It's time for me to quit.

All the bad habits.

Like scratching.. and Sss..

Bad for health.

Area cleaning 6.

MY room is in a mess.

HAHA. Mount Everest is just in my room.

My dolls, need bathing.

hundreds of them.

Area cleaning 7.

I decided to quit badminton.

Those days were bad.

They are so mean to me.

They make me cry.

No one knows about it though.

Rephrase, No one cares about it.

Area cleaning 8.

I'll show the world how important I am.

2010-03-08T15:23:00.002+08:00

I got so many things on my mind now.

I cry and then I laugh.

I think I am going paranoid.

Hahahas.

Like I said, I been a clown for half of my life.

I always try to make people laugh with my lame jokes.

I laugh at myself sometimes.

Like, I just send out a 100 sms inviting people to my birthday.

And I forget to put the date.

And like I went to work this morning and forget I had a medical review.

I never become pretty.

Never never.

I never be able to play sport under the sun again.

I never able to go sun tanning anymore.

But it's ok.

I think I just got a shot in my heart.

Nobody can save it.

The clown is on mc today.

2010-03-01T16:47:00.001+08:00

I lost my feelings.

I dont want it back.

2010-02-02T20:55:00.002+08:00

I haven blog for years!!

Now I am back.

With lots of problem as usual.

Let's start with my face.

Looking around. There's no one else that got a face like me.

I thought god is suppose to be fair.

Someone once told me. God is fair.

Since he given you such nasty skin.

But still he gives you a pretty face. ( Thats was when I am young )

Then now what. Nasty skin and ugly face.

I was walking. And then I saw this nerd bitch.

She wore those outdated glasses. And she got long nice hair.

And white coloured skin. Zzz.

Then somehow I think is time I fixed my hair.

I dun wanna go around wearing hairband everyday like a 100% auntie.

Then.. I cant even fixed my own hair.

I am happy today.

Cause I find myself quite useful.

I help my Coxswain with his admin job.

And then ship comes back.

The atmosphere was stern while..people waiting for results.

And there I was smiling and talking cock as usual.

Maybe I shouldn't. My intention was to make people happy.

No matter what the outcome is.

Then...again. I was excused from sailing.

What's there to be happy about.

People might think I am so happy I keep smiling because I don't have to sail.

I love my job.

I want to stay onboard Resilience forever.

Why can't they understand me for abit.

I intend to upgrade soon. =D

I see Porkie click the "Start Game" over and over again.

Same thing again.

Each time he click, my tears wanna fall.

.......

2010-01-15T13:08:00.000+08:00

I have nothing much to worry now.

Because I got nothing in this world.

2009-12-31T00:26:00.001+08:00

You felt like a stranger to me.

I cannot hold any longer.

2009-12-19T16:06:00.001+08:00

It was like.

A sudden breakout.

And there I was thinking.

Eh why am I. What am I doing.

Then the memories flash back.

Oh I was playing tennis.

And somehow.

I lost my temper for a while.

2009-12-04T19:13:00.001+08:00

Fuck everyone today.

I had a fucking bad day today.

ROARS.

So much for being a "steady" friend.

And fuck the pork behind.

Keep peeping at me blogging.

2009-11-22T03:03:00.002+08:00

Hi. I am lonely again.

And then cry again.

I wonder what the fuck I want.

I wanna give up soon.

But everytime I thought of what will happen if I give up.

I cry.

Because I know you don't care.

You don't care if I give up anot.

You don't even care if I exist.

I think I should love myself more than I love you.

One more week.

Just one more week.

And...

You will never do what you promise.

I will never get the kind of love I want.

2009-11-16T00:32:00.002+08:00

I can't believe I cry sleeping just beside you so many times.

Because I felt so lonely.

So lonely I felt like dying. Or maybe I am already dead.

I can't believe I willingly to waste time on waiting.

And then in the end. Cry.

I need a better life.

Someone who can makes me happy.

Not just because he finally talk to me and say some sweet things

And I go all crazy about it.

This relationship won't last.

Nothing last when it comes to me.

Nothing.

Since I am alone all the time.

Why can't I just....

2009-11-09T21:02:00.002+08:00

I sms you today.

I dunno why I always need damn hell lots of courage to do that.

It's just a sms.

When I close my eyes.

I see you telling me that I am beautiful.

Exactly like that day.

And then when I open eyes..

I see you leaving me.. alone crying.

You lied.

Why do people lie?

It's kinda hurt everytime I think of you.

Though it's not that painful anymore.

Christmas is coming.

To me. I think it's just another anniversary.

4th year.

I am so sorry.

I am so sorry that I can only apologize to nothing every christmas.

I am so sorry that you won't be able to hear my apologies.

I am so sorry. I didn't mean it.

I am so sorry. I felt really sad too.

I am so sorry. I didn't manage to give you a name.

I am so sorry. A scar is not enough to ammend for what I did.

I wish I died on that day.

People like me don't deserve to be save.

Don't save me anymore.

It painful to stay alive.

Christmas... The festival I love the most.

Santa claus really don't exist?

I still gonna hang my socks this year.

Gingerbreadman is coming to town!

My favourite cartoon character.

Hehe. Guess I am still a kid afterall.

Kid don't murder.

But I guess I did.

2009-11-01T19:21:00.002+08:00

Why do I have to always cry alone.

It's not fair. That I am here crying.

And you are happily playing game.

It's not fair. So not fair.

2009-10-28T19:53:00.002+08:00

I wish I died.

No one think I am worth living anyway.

When I tried hard to keep everyone around me happy.

And...still nobody cares.

Make me dead.

2009-10-26T01:43:00.002+08:00

It's sad, when I thought of how they used to treat me last time.

I put in so much. I gave so much.

And then I get nothing, NOTHING in return, but pain.

I hope this time round is not.

I had a quarrel with Fat Pork on friday.

I cry while walking on the way home.

Why does all this things happen on me.

But then I didn't see how much effort he put in.

But after that bad friday.

I realize, I don't have to a idiot to wait and wait at home for his return.

Meanwhile I can do lotsa stuff like, swimming and going out for shopping.

I shouldn't be so stubborn.

Even after all my ex-bf break up with me because I am stubborn.

And Fat Pork can endure me for so long.

Isn't he sweet.

I reborn my hair today.

Finally I felt, newer and much more alive and kicking.

Seriously, HAIR does matter.

Christal has move to AMK. My hair stylist.

Haha. Sound like a professional.

But.. Haha, she is just a ordinary hair stylist.

But she's good. At least the best in all the hair stylist I met.

If not I won't went all the way down to AMK just to cut a hair.

I have persuaded Porky to get into the " Set a goal " mode.

And our goal is to get married and save alot money before that.

If we fail, We just break the Pork Bank and split the money.

Heh. It's just a goal for us to work towards to.

It doesn't mean we have to WORK towards to.

I mean... We have to! But .. Nvm.

Well. I wish we can make it.

Muahahahas.

I am tired.

Gonna go sleep.

Work tomorrow.

B-O-R-I-N-G.

ROARS. I gonna protect my country!!!

No nonesense!

Without Singapore, There won't be FAT PORK!

And all my friends. My brothers. And Sister!!

1. Junyi

2. Yong Yeow

3. Cesc

4. Dongxu

5. Soh Hwee

6. Hey I think I only got 5 friends.

2009-10-24T00:42:00.001+08:00

Haha. Bao's at home playing mahjong again.

I wonder where she get to know so many mahjong legs from.

2009-10-13T23:21:00.002+08:00

I have some serious infection.

So serious I hate going to toilet now.

It's hurt when I urine.

So sad. And is like everytime 10 minutes I need to urine.

I am getting old.

Last time shit got blood.

The doctor put test tube into my asshole lohs.

Then after that say, " Oh nothing much lahs, Overheat nia "

Kanina!

I will never forget her face.

Stupid bitch.

Anyway.....

I think I got some Shopping Diesease. (SD)

I suppose to go to this woman clinic this morning.

And I can't find it.

But on the way searching.

I think I spend like $200.

Slippers. Faceshop.

Shirts. ETC ETC.

I won't even let off things like batteries and tiger palm.

Lols. I am really sick.

Tomorrow sailing onboard Gallant.

Have to sleep aft mess. T_T

So sad.

Lols.

Friday meeting my elephant for dinner.

Hmmm. Porky is coming with me.

Hehehe. I hope they get along.

I love my porky.

I love my porky so much I decided to go fasting.

I am getting fat.

When I hug him I can feel his huge stomach against my not so big stomach.

MUAHAHAHAS.

But there's still stomach.

I bet nobody understand what I am saying.

But nevermind!

No eating onboard Gallant.

3 days 2 nights for $400.

And I spend it on ps3 for Porky birthday present.

But I think I playing it more than him.

I wonder what so important that their people can't sail.

Hmmm.

I am going to sleep soon!!!

My fat porky is running now.

So cute. Haha trying to cut down weight.

Muacks I love my porky.

2009-10-12T02:43:00.002+08:00

There are times.

When I felt so sad, I swear I will never comply to your anything anymore.

There are also times.

When I felt angry and have to keep it to myself.

Seriously I felt like spamming all the vulgarities and my powerful

middle finger into your face. But of course not. XD

There are a few times.

I felt down and you didnt notice.

I thought I said something about "What a stupid guy"

But then there is never a time.

That I stopped loving you.

Hehehe.

It's good to have a laptop.

So you can bring it around, not just your house.

I am currently lying on my bed.

In a very comfy position.

And blogging.

Thinking that I should blog more often now and then.

Because I am at home. And kinda feeling talkative.

And there's no one to talk to and this late hours.

Though I have 300+ dolls.

But I assume they are sleeping already. =D

So just let me talk.

Let's see.

I am currently thinking of when I first join the SAF.

Before I join, I was free like a bird.

I fly everywhere that is flyerable. ( HEHE MY own ENGLISH )

But then I was spoiled.

And bad temper.

Keep bullying those weaklings in school.

Muahahahas. I sound so bad.

And worse, Not much allowance.

No money = die/dead.

As you all know I spend at least 1900 (all my pay) a week.

Because my salary always last for just a week.

Sad.

Then I join the SAF.

I become somehow, still a bird.

But can only fly when people allow me to.

Is like a million birdy marching together.

And I am one of them now.

LOLS!

I got friends. Though we don't really hang out together.

I always wanted a friend.

Just one.

One that I always have her/he in my mind and.. you know.

Eat lunch together, go out together, play together, taung together.

Go to work together. Endless topic.

And just everything together.

Like elephant and me.

Anyway, I am meeting her on friday.

It's like a meet the boyfriend gathering.

Muahahahas

Bleahs.

I am getting sleepy.

Goodnight.

I love my little porky.

My cute little porky.

My fat fat porky.

MY PORKY.

MINE!

2009-10-08T11:34:00.000+08:00

why do i feel like i am under control?

2009-10-05T13:06:00.002+08:00

My throat hurts.

I hate it when I have to face a mistake I make.

And then have to crack my brain on how to salvage it.

Duty again.

I love my Pork Pork.

2009-09-24T23:03:00.002+08:00

I start to find guys very very very very freaking mother fucking

I.R.R.I.T.A.T.I.N.G

Except for my fat three layered stomach pork.

My porky.

Is cute ( Ugly but adorable )

And Fat.

Simply dumb.

And...Very unromantic.

.....

I love my FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT

FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT

Little Porky. =D

2009-09-24T04:05:00.001+08:00

I love my pork pork.

2009-09-23T00:12:00.003+08:00

My eyes sore again.

Mucus keep flowing out from my nose.

Like waterfall...?

I think I done something wrong again.

Like I always did.

I remember telling myself.

If things doesn't belongs to me.

Then I have no choice but to make it mine.

I've done it.

Happiness, laughter and stupid imaginery stories.

They only last for a very short while.

When you first write the first few episode.

You feel the exitement about "I wonder if he likes it"

I crack my brains using everything I have all my energy I spend

So I can think of interesting stuff to share.

I always been a joker.

A tomboy.

A man!

I have to protect everyone I loved.

I committed more than I can.

Clowns get performance money from audience.

But I got nothing.

Because at the end of the day.

I'm always tired and exhausted from all the "protecting".

Not protecting the people I loved.

But myself.

I guess I am the one who needs protection the most.

But there's no one there I can lean on.

And blurt out everything that is eating me.

It's hurtful.

To know.

You doubt my love.

Like I mention in the previous post.

Everything is a lie.

But my love is not.

But seems to me like my love is a lie to you.

HAHA. This is for lying too much.

Retribution.

Now... I am going to smoke until I can't feel my lungs.

( Anyone know the feeling of feeling a lungs? )

And til I die...I just gonna fill everywhere with laughter.

Even if I cry I gonna cry laughing!

Anyway I think I got a pair of pretty eyes with neverending tears.

Where I got so much water from.

I thought I just pee.

It's painful inside.

2009-09-19T00:16:00.002+08:00

I think I am living in a lie.

Though I hope losing my wallet is also a lie.

TELL ME ITS NOT TRUE!

I hae parents that love me and dote on me.

Although we always quarrel when we had eyes contact.

But still I am living in a lie.

I had a boyfriend that make a effort to cheer me up when I am angry with him.

But he always makes me kinda lonely and

"suck thumb because I am in love with him"

Promises like cooking a maggie mee always come hours later.

After I already start to deform into a zombie due to starvation.

Still, Is this a lie too?

What I meant was...

Everything is coming to an end.

I was very happy throughout all the times.

I mean I seriously am laughing when I am laughing.

But..After the crowd dispersed..

"What's so funny about just now"

Maybe it's a habit that I just like to laugh so much that is a habit.

I always bought damn lots of stuff when it comes to pay day.

Simply because I got nothing better to do.

Shopping kinda makes me "PHEW"

Though it makes me feel like a idiot carrying alot of bags.

I fell down at northpoint the other day.

After buying lots of BRAS that I promise I will buy for myself.

As a reward..for working too hard.

( Excuses )

Because I was carrying so much stuff.

I couldn't see the puddle of slimy slimy watery dunno what on the floor.

I manage to do some kungfu and land on my feet.

But my ankle hurt now. =\

I becoming more and more clumsy.

And I don't know why.

I used to be so protective of myself.

Even like how many ants passes me.

I will know.

I guess my spike has been cut off.

And stop observing how people react.

And stop protecting myself from meanies.

And also failed to see who is bad and who is not.

Simply because I lie to myself.

"He wont do this to me"

"She not that kind of person"

Even until I see their true colour.

"Maybe its her/his bad fur day"

Talking about bad fur day.

I been having that everyday since I cut my hair.

I swear to god I will never go to that salon and cut again!

If she touches my hair once more.

I make sure I chop my hair myself rather than let her chop.

Now I feel like a frizzly....bear?

I felt scare about the upcoming events that requires me to be MC.

It's just talking.

But I gonna talk in front of so many people.

And I think I need to wear skirt.

You know...I never done anything like this in my life.

Then again, what's there to be scare of.

I am getting tired.

I need to sleep very soon. Like immdiate.

Still got to sail tomorrow.

I think I done something proud today.

I drew a line.

Between work and friends.

Well, that takes alot of courage.

I guess, lies makes me happy.

Though I hope loving me is not a lie.

Its not about the maggie mee I am upset about.

It's about how you prioritize me between....me and games?

And how you care about my needs and my wants.

I guess I can do anything for you.

Or simply everything. If you ask me to.

But...What do I get in return?

AN HOUR LATE MAGGIE MEE.

And that really causes me to deform into a zombie.

2009-09-17T21:09:00.001+08:00

My poor poor laptop has been hospitalize.

Currently using my daddy old and dying laptop.

Have to wait for one week for my laptop to discharge from hospital.

Sians..

2009-09-07T22:56:00.003+08:00

Come to think of it.

Today I been doing nothing again.

Although I learn something from L Andrew.

And he's laughing at my knowledge. I think.

Well blame it on someone.

I still can't forget everything and anything.

Not even your bloody face.

It makes me boil the moment I see you.

It's like " fuck i wanna strangle you " But then again,

" I don't want dirty my hand "

Man.

It's sound hurting saying all this.

Blaa. He should die.

Baby kaobeing about me keep flirting on msn.

Heehee.

I am sailing early morning tomorrow.

Talk to CO on the phone today.

Like he say who the would spend time calling someone

and specially tell them how you feel or cares about how you feel.

If that person don't appreciate you.

I thought I gonna... just somehow.

Zzzz...

2009-09-06T18:04:00.002+08:00

Woke up and you can tell that it's gonna be a long long boring day.

For me. Yes.

I having some difficulties living my life again.

I have the urge to swim 50 laps in the pool now.

But no. Because I don't want to be alone.

Beanie is on my mind right now.

Currently listening to Melodies of Life.

A song which part of the lyrics says..

"Do you remember loving me"

Well I still remember.

Specially when I play Patapons.

I use to hold your hands.

And we will sang the BON BON BONN song together.

BB's meow meow eyes is so big.

And it's like staring at me with hatred cause I always threw him on the floor.

And etc etc.

How can a cat win me.

Bleahs. I still don't understand.

Maybe I am getting old.

How I used to be so rebellious and "I will have what I want"

But now.. I still have to think twice about going for a swim.

And how to control my temper and emotion.

So I wouldn't hurt anyone feelings.

And then I get so used it I think I forgot about my own.

I curse bb get snipe and kill in SA everytime he play.

So that he will get fed up and stop playing and then turn around and look at me.

Okay I got nothing to blog already.

2009-09-05T00:27:00.002+08:00

Geez.

I blew up just now.

Thinking of a way to keep myself awake.

So I can wait for baby to come back.

But now is only 12.30am.

Zzzz.. And I am bored.

I wonder what's so fun about dragonfly.

Will kana H1N1 you know.

Old people nowadays ah... Don't know what they thinking.

Tsk Tsk.

Some picture I took in genting.

My hair is gone.

I don't look pretty anymore.

SOB!!

And to think I was so against bimbos.

BB jacket that keep me warm!

I really really really miss my hair.

Lao nu ren and me =D

Isn't she cute?

Haha caught them!!

2009-09-04T12:40:00.001+08:00

Uh huh.

I felt like crying.

This is not the life I want.

Then I think by tomorrow I will wake up

and forget everything that happen today.

And go crazy for some particular person again.

So I tried and tried so hard to keep my tears from dropping

Because I don't want it to lead to some arguments.

I tell you what.

I woke up feeling so useless.

And so lazy today.

I fucking hell don't feel like doing anything.

NOTHING.

But I force myself to fucking hell change the bloody mindset

of doing nothing for the whole day and do something.

I clean the bloody room.

I clean it with my hand and a piece of cloth.

I wipe every single inches of tiles in your room.

And I wipe basically everything in your room.

I fucking don't do housework.

Why do you have me make me feel so low.

And now I have to use all my cells and concentrate on not dropping

a single drop of fucking tears.

And so I thought maybe you done something sweet

and can make me smile and feel like a bloody idiot madly in love again.

But you didn't.

And then so be it.

I am sick being a bimbo.

Like some bloody shit that cares about how her fucking hair look like.

And start to worry of her actions that might make the guy just run away.

Whatever.

Mother fucker all.

Shit just fuck off.

2009-09-01T13:20:00.002+08:00

Oh as I were saying yesterday.

Baby bought a new computer.

And now he can't play sudden attack with it.

Hee. I am trying to fixed it.

Felt so young suddenly like 10 years ago.

When I was just primay 4 I would sit in front

of my computer every night and day.

And that time my computer always spoiled.

And then start to fixed myself with daddy screwdriver.

And tada. I am a genius.

Blahs whatever.

Baby sailing.

So sians.

Hais...

I am so tired about work.

I mean not about work or sailing.

About peoples.

I been praise by CO quite often recently.

Why am I doing this?

Oh whatever.

Anyway I realize some good point under him.

He forced you to learn.

And when people asked me a question, I know how to answer.

Because I somehow remember being force to learn by CO.

Lols. Blaa. I gonna fall asleep soon.

So tired.

2009-09-01T00:00:00.003+08:00

Oh my god.

I haven blog for a fucking damn long time.

Something is wrong with my laptop.

I guess it's really time to fixed it.

Tomorrow I will bring it for repair.

Sians.

Tomorrow still have to go and work.

I mean I been so xiong for a week.

Lols.

Bleahs.

Actually it fun being busy.

Totally busy for a whole week.

Sailing and sailing.

But it's fun.

BB bought a new desktop.

Heehee!!

2009-08-30T22:22:00.000+08:00

Every fucking thing on this internet is down.
Facebook, hotmail, blogger. I cant even fucking play SA.
Shit the internet

2009-08-19T01:47:00.002+08:00

I woke up today and then it was 5pm.

Time flies.

Especially on your off day.

Feeling so..... question mark today.

I got nothing to do the whole day.

And tomorrow is off for me again.

Baby's back tomorrow.

I was so bored I actually...

watch cartoon for 3 years and below on television.

Bought crabs and get scolded.

Haha. So funny.

I bought crabs for them.

And they said I waste money.

Since I just bought abalone yesterday.

What's wrong with them.

I do what I want and I eat what I feel like eating.

Hais.

Will never buy anything again! Bleahs!

Boring.

Baby.

Faster come back.

Loading photo for the genting trip.

Post soon. xD.

Nites peeps.

2009-08-18T01:42:00.003+08:00

Had a talk with Angel Co.

I kinda miss him.

I still couldn't find anyone that is even one quarter of him.

I am not 125-ing.

Hmm.

Whatever others said.

I saw erm...blogs.

About how guys can said something and hurt us girls.

Without noticing.

Well, I think guys always said something

that suprise me.

Because they makes me feel so touched.

And I wonder if they notice.

I think I can't just sit down here all day long.

And keep thinking about "being kick out".

I miss all my friends for sure.

I miss them.

Lee Lee was posted out.

And I still miss him.

And we go went out.

And we are still friends.

So I think there's nothing to be afraid of anymore.

Maybe it's time I learn how to let go.

And change. Like my GO Mr Potato says.

I miss him too.

I miss everyone.

Let's not sound like I gonna post out for sure.

BB sailing.

I felt my heart crack for a moment.

Then I repair it with lot's of faith and trust.

I login into this farm and saw this message send by

some imperfect girl. I mean her name.

Not saying she's imperfect.

Haha. And simple the message just says " I love you "

Oh talking about here.

My heart crack again.

Anyone hear?! The glass sound.

Oh whatever.

Faith and trust where are you. I got repair work.

Lionfishes are really pretty.

I remember point at resilience ship badge.

And says I wanted to go to this ship with weird ship badge.

Haha.

And here I am. Resilience.

My heart hurts.

Stupid BB.

He won't do this kind of things to me.

Hahaha he won't.

But... am I feeling scare?

Hahaha.

I think I better sleep.

2009-08-07T14:51:00.000+08:00

BB!! I love you!!

I gonna dieee without you!!

T_T

I am ... dying...

*dead*

2009-08-05T14:50:00.002+08:00

Everytime I stay at home I get frustrated.

I dun know why.

I think I don't like home anymore.

Went to chalet.

Seen things I thought I only can see on television.

I still don't believe how ugly people can be.

Doing things that makes people cry.

And I am a accomplice.

I haven ate anything since yesterday.

Except for tons or marshmellow.

BBQ was fun!

I wish everyone can just BBQ the whole night.

Instead of doing those kind of things.

See all the chicken wings and hotdogs.

LAIS cook one all chaota.

I cook one so nice. =D

So happy.

Muahahahas.

Hais.

Stupid baby.

Gamble the whole night.

Didn't see him much lohs.

I think I getting possesive liaos.

I want him to be with me 24/7.

I still remember time when we just started.

I would wait for him.

But why I can't I wait anymore.

He still say he like someone like that.

And now I making him hate me. =\

But I love him so much lahs.

I think I need friends.

I going to make more friends.

So I won't feel lonely when Baby is not with me.

I love you. I love you.

2009-08-03T15:28:00.002+08:00

What do people do when they feel like this.

They fuck care.

Hais.

I had enough.

Use knife or whatever.

Just make sure I die.

And not making it more painful!!!

Roars.

U stupid stupid girl.

2009-08-03T00:20:00.002+08:00

I miss you.

My little ant.

Weird day!

Maybe because I am alone!

Went down for sun tanning.

And...There this bunch of kids.

Naughty ones.

They are so young.

And so crude.

There's this maid.

Okay. This two boy.

A and B.

The maid belong to A.

And A shouted at her maid.

Asking her to go up and get his ball so he can play with B.

Then B scolded A maid.

Ask her to faster go and take.

So rude!! This is just one point.

Then there I was, the poor lonely me.

On the chair, tanning my back.

Lying on my hand while I watch the two monkeys.

Then they start splashing water.

And splash all over. ME .

And they just laugh and laugh...

I heard her say she's gonna kill them.

Haha.. Lucky me...

Then I got sick of the monkeys.

P.S ( I don't hate kids. I just dislike them. Well except for my own )

I went to the gym.

I went in.. then there were another china freak inside.

Hey, I am not being countrisis. Lols dunnno what lahs.

But he was really a freak.

He on the aircon... HELLO! This is a gym.

Where people need to sweat!

Maybe not for him but for me lohs!

Somemore I just came up from the bloody pools.

I was like shivering inside the gym lohs.

Then he was there watch TV.

Then keep laughing damn loud.

Then every 5 minutes or so, he will go the ... the weight thing lahs

Do abit of workout then back to his TV again.

Freak.... and I was there shivering. Not very normal also.

Then a bitch came in.

She look okay at first.

Long curly hair.

Average looks.

And funny clothes for workout.

Then she was running on the track thing.

And I was beside her.

She run like she doing modelling lohs.

Keep looking into the mirror and pose different kind of poses.

Then style her hair every minute lohs.

Tie like that then after change. Then the way she run like

making love with guy like that. Kanasai

See also wanna slap her lohs.

I think she guy lai de lohs

Just change sex. Then not used to it.

Ke lians.

Weird day!!

After that I went to do sit up.

In the fitness corner.

Peaceful lohs........

Do only like 35 then stomach sour liaos.

Last time can do 50 lohs.

I wanna cry!

Anyway, I slim lohs.

I only 54KG!

Nabei! Last time 57KG one lohs!!

Muahahahahas.

If BB say I fat... I gonna pull him to the weighing machine.

Then compare our weight.

He sure cry one lohs.

Oh.. So sad my poor BB.

He so fat.

Like I said.. If I were him I would have commit suicide.

Muahahahas.

Going to genting this friday!

Hmm.

So many things haven do.

Hais. I miss my BB.

He called and said he watching scary movie alone.

My BB hum one lohs.

He cannot take this kind of thing one.

So kelian. Watch alone!!

Roars!!

Oh I forget to mention that I went to eat SAKURA

with my family.

The shark fins... so disappointing.

I swear swear and cross cross my heart heart that I will never go there again!

I give a 5 saliva rating.

Kanasai.

All I eat is Salmon and Salmon.

Eat until shit.

Then after shit come out... continue Salmon.

No raw oyster. No nothing.

BLEAHS!

Lousy place.

Though I didn't pay for it.

=P.

Tired liaos.

Going to hug my BB jacket until it's torn.

Muacks Muacks my BB Ant.

I love you.

Roses are red, Violet are blue.

Your eyes are so pretty and the rest of you too!

From : John John.

I still remember!

2009-07-29T23:10:00.001+08:00

Play play play.

Playing makes me bored.

MC for six days.

But I feel perfectly fine.

Bleahs

I think I going back to work this friday!

Tomorrow is my last day rest. =\

Exams coming.

Sians.

Hais.

Nothing to do.

I love my baby.

My baby ant.

One stomp will die one.

2009-07-29T00:32:00.002+08:00

I can't believe I done that.

For you.

I cut my hair.

My precious hair.

I wasted so much money on it --> Hair.

I had enough of the word mop.

And now I've done it.

I should'nt have.

Morale minus 60%.

See. I gonna fail my exams.

Mummy miss me.

They want me to go genting.

=\ I am like " Genting again? Not sians mehs "

Then again I think I haven went home and have eyes contact with them

for quite a long long time.

And then again, I think is time our relationship take a break.

Take a break. Not break.

I have to sit, wait and do nothing.

Waiting for you to play game.

I have to play with you.

And when I got bored of it, I still got to wait for you.

Waiting kills.

I am not those patient type of human.

That will always wait and wait while doing nothing.

Maybe...hais.

I will always force myself to remember this word.

" The one who cares less, win "

I couldn't bring myself to do it though.

I guess you must be hugging the damn bloody mother fucking shit.

I can't believe I lost to a doll.

Somemore doll is my favourite thing in this world.

So much things happen lately.

So so much.

Makes me stress.

My hair stand up.

And starts to kewl like prawn.

I need rebonding.

I need a nike bag which I saw earlier.

I need alot alot brand new clothes.

And alot more shoes even though I just bought 2 today.

Maybe some watches helps.

I need shopping.

But fuck. I dun have money.

Then I should have go sightseeing.

Mount Faber which I think I am suppose to be right now.

I guess promise are always meant to be broken.

Promise Promise.

I hate promise.

I fucking hell swear to god I won't fucking believe promises anymore.

Not in my entire life anymore.

People seems to know your presence.

I thought I will do everything to conceal you.

I guess you are out.

Everywhere I go become disaster.

It's basically all your fault.

I wish you can shut your damn mouth for one night.

And stop talking to me.

Seriously. Before I ask someone to kick you away.

Well...$$...

Genting.

I hope it lift my mood.

No one is gonna make me happy except for myself.

Therefore. Myself

2009-07-19T14:47:00.002+08:00

What's with the wait a while and then

NOTHING.

I think I have enough of your wait a while.

Promises are nothing to you.

Then it shall be nothing to me too.

I thought if someone got the guts to say out

whatever thing he want to do or will do.

He must have the guts to finish whatever things he suppose to.

Bleahs. It's not just between us.

I hate empty promises!

Si Nan Ren!

2009-07-18T16:07:00.001+08:00

I hope whoever that takes my BB stuff..

return to him.

Please.

So angry roars.

2009-07-14T00:07:00.002+08:00

I got alot to blog about.

Blabbling!!

First of all I dunno why Lee Lee just pop into my mind.

Sister I miss you.

Work will be fun with you around.

Lee Lee I really miss you.

= ]

All the best for your relationship!!

Please look for me if you encounter any girls problems.

Although I only half bucket girl.

Lols.

Baby change liaos.

He change so much.

So happy.

Everyday act sweet lohs now.

So sweet.

I wonder what happen if we happen to break up.

Hee Hee.

Anyway I don't think that will happen.

I wanna kneel down on the floor and propose to you.

Because you are old and fat.

I wanna take care of you and make you grow fatter!

That remind of that I am suppose to steal mum secret recipe.

It's time I learn cooking.

I think I can learn in just one day.

No rush.

And because you are a pig that don't know how to use computer.

I need to be there to download your stupid unknown language song for you.

Imagine you, all alone.

So sad. And people will cover their mouth while laughing at you

because you are so fat.

But with me around.

Such a pretty girl.

People will be envious instead of laughing.

Muahahahahas.

And you always speed.

You need someone to remind that you can't die alone.

Cause we are gonna die together.

When you get old, you will start to ache everywhere.

I'll be your portable massage chair! =D

I guess you also need someone that is pro enough to kill you in games.

That will be me.

Muahahahas.

And when you are so old or too fat you can't even move.

My non-stop talking mouth can keep you entertain for the rest of your life.

Do I have enough reason to propose?

Hmm.. Oh and someone need to clean your room for you.

That will be me again.

I have to remind you everyday that you are fat.

So you will have the motivation to exercise.

And remind you we need to eat delicacy every pay day!

I didnt know I was so useful.

Self compliment. Hehehehe

Die liaos I talk like ah ma.

Muahahahas.

I am only twenty!! =D

Let's grow old together.

I love you.

2009-07-11T00:50:00.002+08:00

Wah went to eat crab crab with BB.

Damn big big the crab crab.

BB order one black pepper and one chilli.

Each person each.

Hehehe.

The way he eat while saying " CB lohs damn shiok lohs "

I see liaos also shiok lohs.

Sians.

Tomorrow still got duty and sailing.

Anyway sabre was fun!!!

So so fun.

Maybe because people gave compliment.

Hahahaha.

Yay last sailing on sunday!!

And I hope tomorrow got activated.

Muahahahahas.

Tired.

Wanna ZZZZ Soon.

Oh.. I went to see a doctor today.

And I wish the clinic got those " Please rate us "

kinda stuff. I gonna give 5 stars lohs

Even though is just a wulu wulu clinic.

I think I stay like 3o minutes in the room.

The doctor kept explaining things to me.

And even took paper and pen to draw my skin.

Then apply steriods then what will happen.

Then tell me that why I should change bedsheet every week

and not every month, cause of my eyes irritation.

And the food poisoning.

He press my stomach and when he press until a certain area,

I can feel my sai want to come out lohs.

Lols. Goodnight peeps.

Nice crab.. Hehehee.

Bankrupt liaos.

So fast. XD

2009-07-06T18:57:00.002+08:00

My heart hurts.

It hurts like ... people stomping on it.

I heard Victory was qurantine.

Bleahs.

I called.

I wonder where my courage come from.

You were so happy.

Why am I still .... ?

When you already let go.

Fucking hand.

Let go before I slap you!!

See. I need to slap myself.

2009-07-01T19:44:00.001+08:00

Nobody cares about how I feel.

Nobody!!!!

I allow myself to cry today.

Only today!!!

My love overflowed.

It's time to take a break.

2009-06-24T22:05:00.004+08:00

Maybe I will never get to used to why people

lie about...things.

But I think if I want to continue this relationship.

I just have to shut the fuck up.

Did we have a quarrel?

It sounds like a quarrel to me.

I dunno why I kept thinking of Beanie.

Maybe the way Ant Ant threw my hand away makes me think of

how he threw my hand away.

T_T

Then for a second, maybe I shouldn't be so sensitive.

Beanie is gone.

I did so bad for my test today.

Although the guy say I am good in this particular local stuff.

But I thought everyone know.

I mean, everyone know right?

What so good about me!

I thought I can score better.

Stupid bitch.

Always like that. Pui.

It's time I get used to life without you.

Not all guys are the same.

I mean I hope they are not like you.

Ant Ant promise he won't throw my hand away anymore.

Bleahs.

Photos!!!

Mr Potato and Me!!

Isn't he cute? Now he's gone. T_T

My Pretty Pretty NO. =D

Me Me =D

I belong to my Fat Fat Ant Ant. =D

2009-06-23T14:20:00.002+08:00

Mummy told me about some fucker at work today.

She said the mother fucker came to her stall and scold her.

Because Fong Fong was running around the place.

Ah yee then tranform into some green monster and started

scolding vulgarities. And continue by mummy.

I think that guy got shock. And... silent mode liaos.

Lols.

Never look down on woman.

Specially woman from my family.

Gave me flashback on what happen during ITE.

The first time I fought in ITE is because a guy pull my hair.

TT got so angry she almost threw a chair over.

So scary. Elephant stop her in time.

But elephant was injured and bleed.

See what you have done!!

Bad temper girl.

After elephant bleed. I felt damn guilty and sad about it.

I went to the toilet and cry.

Lols. Weakling.

The second time was because I heard the boys scolded my friend.

China dog.

I pick up the phone.

And here come desmond, sebas and veenay to the rescue!

The boys was at the bus stop

Desmond went over and punch his bloody XL face.

And his head hit the pole. Still got the sound " Pong "

Very loud.

Liangwei got kick in his cock lohs.

Damn funny.

And he was on the floor grabbing his cock and moaning lohs.

After that we all come down to a agreement that

Both of them will get a slap from me and things settled.

Lianghai still says, Charbo.. Slap twenty time also no kick.

The I straight away slap him in the face and he started crying.

Now we are friends. =D

The second time was a girl.

I never ever wanted to hit girls.

But she is totally hopeless case lohs.

Just wanted her to love herself more.

=\ Lame excuse.

She told me she is pregnant.

Then ask me not to tell others.

Thing is I fuck care her lohs.

But she threw letter over to tell me all this kind of thing.

I don't even know her.

I guess she heard of me somehow.

And I can tell that she is obviously trying to poh me lohs.

Then I saw her in the toilet.

She said " Why you go tell people I pregnant "

From what I know people around keep asking me if she really pregnant.

Then I say I dunno. Then my friends told me that she tell alot people.

I got so angry I kick her in the stomach.

Then here come the KPO elephant again trying to stop me.

She bend down on the floor and cry.

Then keep saying sorry.

Sibei ke lian.

Hais.

Another issue is a lesbian call cailing.

We have been good friend until one day

She hold my hand and told me that she likes me.

I dunno how to response to this kind of things.

I just HAHAHA. Orhs.

Then walk away.

Then I heard elephant telling me that when I go to the toilet and pee,

She was there peeping.

I got angry again.

I punch her in the face which I dunno why her right eye got swollen.

Swollen until the eyes almost pop out.

So scary!!

Elephant then got angry with me.

Because she don't want me to keep getting into fights.

After quite long.

I apologize to Cailing for what I have done to her.

And she gladly forgive me.

Cause she always get bully without me around.

She one day came to me and cry.

She say she got flash by a guy.

The guy was her good friend and they were going out.

And this guy suddenly just unzip and show her.

I was quite mean.

The time she told me, I was thinking...

" You so fat, So ugly. Somemore lesbian. Sure anot? "

I told her to call the guy out.

And she did.

We meet at northpoint.

And I said let's go to the void deck and talk.

We were at 2nd storey.

I punch the guy in the face.

And squeeze his balls and cock.

I think TT used alot forced.

He lie on the floor.

Start to say sorry.

Cailing also was pulling me back.

I pushed her.

Weirdo lohs.

She want me to F him one lohs.

Then now at there act helpful lohs.

CCB.

I got so angry with both of them.

I kick the guy cock one last time then walk off.

He was on his knees begging me.

And I found out he was older than me by 3 years.

Wah lao, I very mean lohs.

Cailing was then beat up by my sister and simon.

Because she any pom story.

Say what I call ang soon tong people what sai what sai one lahs.

Poor girl.

The last fight was, This china guy.

This one is really CB.

Nobody touches my elephant.

She is my and mine alone.

They are friends. Not very good or close friends.

Just that they come from the same village or whatever lahs.

He tap her shoulder.

So so so so hard.

Just to say a HI.

I see liaos not happy.

I tap his.

Damn damn damn damn hard.

And say HI.

I can tell that he is angry.

But he don't have balls.

Then we sat around the round table.

Then seats are all occupied.

With hippo, sheep, elephant and me and one guy.

Left with one more seat, we all put our bag there.

Then this china guy came over and take our bag and put on the table.

And fucking hell, the bag touch my chicken rice cucumber lohs.

CB. Du Lan lohs.

Elephant keep sending me signal lohs.

I can tell lohs.

I suck thumb lohs.

I shut up.

After that he talk talk talk then his rice all fly onto the table.

I nabei cb cannot take it.

I say his mother never teach him eat that time cannot talk huh.

He then insult back my mother.

CCB. Flashback until so angry.

I go over and ask him to apologize.

Cause I saw elephant face going sian 1/2.

He then ask me go and die with my family.

I bang his head on the table and the table just nice got his western food.

Fries, chilli sauce, chicken chop sauce all on his face.

He stand up, he push me.

I fell down.

Elephant stood up.

I wont forget that.

Hippo and sheep and the other guy just sat there and watch show.

Now you know who is your good friend and who is not.

Samuel, The next table stand up also.

I was really touched lohs.

I always quarrel with him.

And I didn't expect him to help me.

Samuel was big size and quite fit guy.

He grab hold of the pubor and I dunno why suddenly elephant almost fell down.

I thought the china guy push her or something.

I rush to him and keep feeding him my knee.

After that he ran away.

A while later a group of china guy came to over table.

And " Oi why you hit my friend "

Then just now the police walk towards me also.

Then all the china guys walk off.

..... Dog right?

Then parents was call down.

The china guy mother came but he didnt.

His mother say her son was badly injured.

Face swollen and everything.

One of his teeth drop.

And his mother ask my mother

" Your daughter need teaching "

She mess with the wrong mum man.

My mum slam the table.

And then start scolding her.

My sister was also there adding alot stuff.

Like " Ur son molest my sister! Send him to back to china!! "

They got so smart suddenly lohs.

Say what he touch my chest that's why I fell down.

Cannot be he push me on the hand or what then I fell.

Sure is chest one ma.

Then the china guy mother start to apologize and bow to us.

I thought mummy gonna scold me on the way home.

This is the first time in my life she compliment me on fighting.

She say next time hit her mother also ma.

Then ever since then I never saw the china guy ever again..

Type until hand sour liaos.

Going to cook maggie mee.

And SA!

2009-06-23T06:41:00.003+08:00

I got a sore eyes.

I think some bug bite me.

So gao wei lohs.

I feel bad about yesterday.

I cup baby phone.

Because he was late!!

But he went to bought me gingie mother.

A big big gingerbreadman.

Which I been eyeing on.

So sweet right.

Eeyer, I cup his phone.

Bleahs!!!

Going to camp soon.

I wanna go sentosa!!

Roars.

Muacks Ant ant.

2009-06-21T05:18:00.002+08:00

It's kinda weird when you exchange glances with someone you dunno.

Anyway.

I really pity those girls.

I mean they look so happy.

I hope it's for real.

Poor woman!!

Baby peeping at my blogging.

Gonna one on one with him Sudden Attack liaos.

If I win, I got my gingerbreadman!!!

Muahahahahas

2009-06-20T00:35:00.001+08:00

Muacks.

Shag.

Waiting.

2009-06-19T17:29:00.002+08:00

I realize it's time I clean up my room.

My dolls seems dull and not very happy.

I gonna do domestic.

*Wrap band around my head*

BRB!

2009-06-18T23:04:00.002+08:00

Run about 3km today.

I always slow down my baby.

Bleahs. Next time ask him find someone else liaos.

I think I won't be able to find someone that is sweeter than him.

Today quite shag.

Feel like I haven't been home for a long long time.

Hahaha, Although I was just at home yesterday.

Shit I am broke.

I left like $200 in my bank.

And Mummy is pasting O$P$ everywhere.

And, I owe her $200. =.="

I wrote some story to Ant Ant.

Been so long since I use my brain to think.

Anyway, I use my heart to think.

Hahaha I don't think I follow my brain.

Today is study day!!!

Once in a blue moon!

Tomorrow MM.

Reach home, So sticky.

Bath, Brush my teeth.

Du lan cause I run out of hair mask.

So clean so clean.

Found out mum's mask hiding place.

Muahahahas.

Gonna blog finish then piak a mask on my face liaos.

Tomorrow need to wake up early.

I think I am feeling alot better nowadays.

Ant Ant, trying to make me happy.

I can tell. Act cute lohs.

Hee. I never ever run alone for so long.

Imagine 12 rounds around the stadium.

Not a chance until I met him.

Haha. Went to meet up with his friend today.

Play billard. So handsome lahs.

Drools*

Muacks Ant Ant.

Beep you!!

2009-06-15T22:26:00.002+08:00

Quite loss at words.

Regarding to what happen today.

I gave almost 90%.

Forget it.

Now I see.

I like my ant ant. =D

2009-06-10T19:05:00.002+08:00

How can I be so cruel to myself?!

I haven fucking shop for so so long.

Hais.

Poor me.

Pay finally come in.

But I realize I got so much so much debts.

So much, I don't think I can shop till next month.

Talking to Chief Gun on the msn.

Man, I miss him!

Less one body to talk cock with me.

Been very skinny lately.

Muahahahas.

Cough like shit. Eat what cough then vomit out.

Sail so long.

Like very long never return home liaos.

I think somebody touch my dolls.

Hais. So bored!!!

Elephant aeroplane me~!!

Nabei. Always like that.

Need me then call me.

Don't need then aeroplane.

Beanie Beanie.

Fuck. I am not suppose to think of you anymore.

2009-06-09T22:31:00.002+08:00

Life is always so unexpected.

Finally, For a minute or two

I forgot about you.

Muahahahahas.

Bye bye beanie.

I like the way when you teach me how to drive.

Accidentally brush through your hand.

I think I feel something somehow.

And then the way you scold badword.

Kinda weird to say it's cute.

Hehe. But it is. ROARS.

Having some stupid cough.

So stupid till it hurts!

My stomach hurts! And my heart hurts.

My throat hurts. Blaaa everywhere hurts.

Slept throughout the sailing.

Why am I so weak. ~_~

2009-06-04T21:33:00.003+08:00

I thought of you today.

I pick up my courage which I thought...

I lost it somewhere.

I send you a sms.

And as expected, no reply.

I ... thought you know..

People always look downwards

When they are sad.

Having to look at the pair of shoes you bought me.

Makes me happy instead.

Chinese saying, giving someone a pair of shoes

gonna send them far far away from you.

Thanks for giving me this pair of shoes.

.....

Bleahs.

I hope my brain forget about you!

I gonna wash it with dettol.

And then pantene with conditioner.

Beanie...Beanie.

Let me rest in peace.

2009-06-03T23:31:00.002+08:00

It's 11pm!!

And I can't fall sleep.

Finally got my Sims 3.

Wahahaha so happy!

Went tanning with Chief Wes again.

Wah laos. I so happy lohs.

Tan until the colour I want liaos.

Finally lohs.

Always wanted to go tanning.

But alone, then always don't have the determination.

Now finally found a tanning partner.

Muahahahahas.

Went to Mummy stall today.

Not much people lehs.

I see liaos abit sians.

My mummy once...got so many customers.

How come become like that!!

Bao come home today.

Wonder if she AWOL.

Hahaha.

Getting tired.

Tomorrow meet Chief Wes 6.45

Sure cannot wake up one lohs.

2009-05-26T23:27:00.003+08:00

Breathe!

I can breathe better.

I finally get out of the evil fever that haunt me for days.

That's so mean.

I only wish for a day.

Well, becareful what you wish for!

I get so much better today.

I can't stop talking.

I haven't talk for days.

I feel like a dirty sticky old dying woman

that wonder around yishun sapphire.

Dad kaobei-ing beside me.

I think I gonna spoil the keyboard.

Curse the hell out of them

Fuck them all.

All should just go and die.

Mother fucker.

Got so much to blog about.

And now? Fuck off.

2009-05-22T21:18:00.002+08:00

I fall sick again.

I think something is wrong with me!

I mean I am quite happy that I am sick.

Cause I have never been sick since I was born!!!

Arrg. But nowadays keep falling sick.

So easily. =\

Caught a fever.

It's the highest fever I ever had in my whole life.

Bleahs.

Wanted to write a 30 days without CO-2 story or something

But. Hais. I hope he's doing well in his new ship.

Mummy cook a whole big pot of chicken porridge.

And...I don't seems to have to appetite.

Sob... Now I feel like eating abalone.

Or maybe sharkfins.

Tomorrow gotta work.

2009-05-18T01:15:00.002+08:00

I fell down.

Finally I bleed.

Thanks to bee.

CO leaving.

So so sad.

I guess, this is life.

Anyway, Why I am always the one kana molested?

Am I a rapist in my previous life?

And now is time for payback.

Bleahs.

I just wanna live my life peacefully.

Talking to CO.

Hais.

Good guys are all leaving.

Even Mr Potato.

2009-05-17T07:20:00.001+08:00

My heart hurts.

Roars.

It's nothing to do with feeling.

It just hurt.

Maybe...It's spoilt.

No wonder I can't feel anything nowadays.

Hahaha! Not joking!

2009-05-15T01:45:00.001+08:00

I am tired.

Mentally.

I need a break.

2009-05-13T06:24:00.001+08:00

........

Blogging at 6am in the morning.

I am tired.

I want to sleep.

I suppose to sleep!

KPO bitch.

Serve you right.

2009-05-11T19:31:00.002+08:00

I done well.

Fixing everything together.

I hate it when people trying to barge into my life.

Anyone who attempt will just die horribly in this whole lifetime.

Why do you have to cursed.

Blaa! Stop scolding me anyway!

I am not the one at fault.

Why is it me that suffer?

It's not fair.

Fuck it.

I hate it so much.

I hate it!

2009-05-11T00:12:00.002+08:00

I wonder if the world is coming to an end.

Bless all the mexicans.

I hope they recover from the swine soon.

Went to cow's home and play dota.

Win myself two gingerbreadman doll.

Wahahaha.

The fun thing about dota is,

If i win.. I got more dolls.

And if i lose, I just have to punch simon in the face

and walk away.

See.. Fun!

Went to cable ski with CO, NO and AO Kenneth.

Wahahaha so fun.

New experience.

Wahahaha.

So tired.

Feeling weird nowadays.

I wonder if I am sick.

I found my old thermometer.

Weee!! SAF gave me a new one.

And Daddy bought one for me.

Now I got 3!

Bao's playing mahjong again.

Dunno why she dun need to work.

And dun need to eat.

Dun need to drink

Dun need to sleep.

Just nicotine and mahjong.

I hope my sister won't turn into a zombie.

What so fun about mahjong?

Stupid John John finally free to show face lohs.

Hee.

Haven seen him for a long time anyway.

Kinda miss him too.

John John.

Remember the song you sing while piggyback me.

You always made me feel so much better.

Thanks alot.

Muacks.

I gonna miss you when you are gone.

Cheers to myself.

As I have walk alone this far.

There's nothing that can bring me down.

Now I see.

2009-05-05T15:11:00.002+08:00

It's half day!!!

Happy Birthday Navy.

I wonder what happen 20 years ago.

Hmmm..

I am so so sad today.

I mean, so not happy.

Why do I have to be sad.

Big big sun today.

Gonna go tanning or what later.

Hmmm...

To Mr Molester.

So sorry I do all this to you.

I don't mean it.

I hope you can forgive me.

Though I doubt you will be able to read my blog.

But so so sorry.

2009-05-04T20:12:00.003+08:00

It's a very tired day I can say.

Let me think what did I do the whole day.

Hmmm... Basically nothing!

Quarrel with Chicken in the morning.

And she threaten to jump down the MRT track.

Then I saw her on the way home.

And this question just pop into my mind.

"Hey you suppose to jump down the track right?"

Fine. It's not really funny at all.

My left eyes keep twitching the whole day.

Something gonna happen.

Maybe the guy that i cursed...really died?

Whatever. I am not that lucky.

Well well, attend my class today.

There's no word I can understand.

Shit, I think I am in deep shit.

Serious.

And my batch boy and girl can just simply... @#$@%

And ta-da~! They got it.

I need to buck up again.

I hate it when I have to you know?

Study marathon kinda thing again.

It's really sickenining and tiring and whatevering.

Can somebody just understand it!

Wanted to went for swim lohs.

This sister of mine has gone insane.

She actually want to play mahjong so much..

She ask my mum and dad.

Everybody start getting fitter and fitter.

How can I lose out!?

Tomorrow half day. I gonna make tuesday, My own sport day.

And if anything happen, Friday will be standby date.

If anything happen again I will activate my weekend.

My racket gonna go rusty.

No way man!

Talking about racket...

I got this tennis bag I wanted to buy so so so so so much at Yishun.

Roars. I bet it sold out.

Shit... Told you!

Don't ever see something you like and not buy it.

You gonna regret for life.

I guess I am gonna regret for life now.

My poor poor tennis bag.

I wonder who got it. And wonder if the owner mistreat it.

Poor tennis bag. You should belong to me...

Oh my.

Can't I just shut the fuck up.

It's just a fucking old bag.

And it's blue in colour.

Why would I want something that is blue in colour.

Fuck off and get myself a life.

But... the bag is really really nice.

Fine... Pimples... all cursed upon my pimples.

And regarding yesterday phototaking session.

...... TA DA......!

There's alot more.

Lazy.

2009-05-03T23:21:00.002+08:00

Went out to celebrate Huiyu's belated birthday.

Happy birthday my dear slut.

I love you lots.

Took lots of picture again.

I wonder where I have to take picture everytime

I having bad rashes. Specially on my face.

Roars.

And not to forget the super duper big and ugly pimple that

pop out recently.

Feel hungry suddenly.

Feel like eating Mum's Macroroni.

Or Wanton Soup. Or... Hais..

I search every hole in my kitchen.

Not even a packet of maggie mee.

So pathetic.

Only eat 1 meal today.

I guess I gonna faint tomorrow.

Who asked me to sleep until 5.30pm.

Yawns.

Photobucket always takes it own sweet time to load

the picture lohs.

Hais.

So tired. I guess I will post the picture the next post.

CO Sir say I will have to sleep at 9pm

In order not to take cab the next day.

Now I got caught on msn. xD

I have to sleep soon!!

I wonder what should I buy for CO Sir.

=\ Hmm...

2009-05-03T00:06:00.004+08:00

Swear to god, Cross my heart.
I will never play mahjong with noob again.

How can someone be so fucking noob.

Okay fine.

Went to eat comms dinner yesterday.

Well, It's expensive.

But there's alot of things I haven't eat before.

So, Muahahahas. Anyway I am not paying for it.

Let Mr. Naggy settle the bill.

Muahahahaas. I am so so mean.

Playing mahjong again.

Taking a break.

I wonder, what so fun about mahjong.

It makes my sister go crazy over it.

Her daily conversation can be about mahjong and mahjong.

My face always turn blue when she talks about it.

It makes me sick. !_!

Took some picture with my Mei Jun.

Muahahahas.

Will be posted later.

Currently talking to CO Sir.

I wanna go USA. I been waiting to run away for a long time.

This is my one shot.

Talking to CO give me lot's of lightbulb.

I guess you guys are jealous of me.

Cause you will never find another CO as good as him.

I gonna miss him alot!!

Thank god for giving me someone so true.

Some bedtime story before I sleep.

Once upon a time, there was a little girl.

She dream of pretty dresses and beautiful shoes when she sleep.

Little did she know pretty dresses and beautiful

shoes doesn't look nice on her.

Sweet dreams, are not always sweet.

True love will never ever come true.

True love is like pretty dresses and beautiful heels.

And they will never look nice on me.

And they will never belong to me.

Who the fuck need love to survive again?

Don't need me to remind you once again.

You. Don't need love to survive.

Well... Okay.

As long as you are here.

I guess it's enough.

It is enough.

She's so cute right?!

2009-04-28T21:13:00.003+08:00

Heart, Where did you go.

EI EI EI.

I dun like EI anymore.

Some test I took in facebook.

So true.

Your eyes reflect the color yellow. You are a warm and inviting person. You tend to have brighter spirits more often than others. You try to see the silver lining in everything. You are also very open to others' opinions and put your heart in everything you do. You also love to make people happy by being a bit humorous. Because you are so positive when things turn out not as you planned you tend to feel pity for yourself. You can also be gullible and unaware of things. You can also be forgetful at times. In all you are a Bubbly person.

Empathic and caring you use this life to make the lives of others better. You make people feel better where ever you go; whether you make their day brighter by walking in the room or make them feel better from the inside out by practicing medicine, people are better for knowing you. Enjoy this life and the lives you touch.

2009-04-25T14:37:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was like hell.

No different from any other day in changi.

But yesterday was hell!!

Dun wanna talk about it.

Fuck them all!!!!

Finally, I caught a fever yesterday night.

So lucky.

I think I caught fever twice in my whole life?

Plus this is the 3rd.

Muahahahas.

I put on mask to cool down my fever.

Red wine mask.

Muahahahahas.

Very hungry waiting for food.

Bleahs

2009-04-22T22:14:00.001+08:00

Muacks Muacks my little John John Bee.

Changi totally sucks.

Pui

2009-04-21T07:34:00.003+08:00

I go around reading other's blog again.

When I am gonna be late for work.

I realize people been living in life that.. keep backstabbing and ?

What happen to my friends?

Well, forget about it.

I made a big mistake again.

2009-04-16T01:13:00.003+08:00

First of all, I miss my John John.

My cute little bee.

Why bee. Cause he eat lotsa honey.

So sweet. Wee!!

Went to bugis with Meijun, Junyi And Mr Naggy today.

Wanted to catch a movie. But bleahs, no movie.

We ate steamboat, till all want to vomit.

Bought a Domo.

Muahahahas. So CUTE!! Oh my god.

It look just like my bee bee.

Isnt it cute? I name him Dodo!!

Anyway upload the picture I took when we go partyworld.

Muahahahas.

Sweet dreams Peeps.

I love John Johnie!

2009-04-14T06:09:00.001+08:00

Wish me luck.

Gonna go.

Hell or Heaven.

We shall see.

2009-04-14T00:22:00.004+08:00

I am so tired today.

I gonna sleep now and wake up at 4.

To hug the buddha leg for tomorrow exam.

I was so dumb.

I always wanted dignity and pride.

I said no to free tips.

Well, I wonder what the score will be like.

People say I am crazy for not taking the tips.

Come on man, be more independent.

There won't be tips in real situation.

I mean, i know it's just some dumb exam.

But you can't expect tips forever.

But, well not last minute hug buddha leg also.

Now what am I going to do without tips.

Shit you Patty Chen.

What so hard about throwing away your dignity and pride.

Oh my god, What am I saying.

It's Dignity and Pride!!

YOU CAN DO IT!!!

Well, I hope so.

Man, I need some encourage and motivation.

Like if I pass, I will get a free bowl of

Laksa without ham add egg without egg white.

Or if I score, a free BMW or Bungalow at Kembangan

just beside John's house.

Or maybe a year sponsor of nicotine?

Well that will just make me die faster.

Unlimited, dog food?

For cheok?

Maybe a month off?

So I can do some mahjong marathon again.

Well, I think the best is to stop dreaming.

Nite Nite.

Muacks to John.